Kanye West is two-faced on the cover of the October 2010 issue of XXL Magazine.

The rapper penned his own cover story (his first article ever) and was also made creative director of a 40-page section for the Hip-Hop magazine’s special collector’s issue. And in his story, Yeezy speaks on the negative response he received last year at the 2009 MTV Video Music Awards, among other things.

Check out an excerpt by clicking below!

“I stress that the incident wasn’t about Taylor personally. And it definitely wasn’t about race. Where I messed up is, at the end of the day, it’s your show, Taylor. It’s your show, MTV. The relationship with the public and with your fans is like the relationship with your girlfriend. How could I not, at a certain point, be like, ‘I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have been at the awards show. I’m sorry.’ Not that I don’t deserve to get beat up or change who I am inside, to make sure that that doesn’t happen again.

“I knew I wasn’t in a great spot publicly after the incident, but I would just block it out and work as hard as possible and let my work be my saving grace. In a way, I had thrown a Molotov cocktail at my own career, and it gave me an opportunity, for the first time, to go away and find out who I was. Because I felt very alone.”

Source: XXL Magazine

For more on Kanye, pick up the October 2010 issue of XXL Magazine when it arrives on newsstands on September 28th!