Fantasia Barrino Opens Up About Why She Tried to Commit Suicide

August 23, 2010 by GOT Staff

R&B singer Fantasia Barrino has finally opened up about her recent medical overdose and all of the drama surrounding her relationship with a married man.

Tomorrow (Tues. Aug 24) a VH1 Behind the Music special about Fantasia will air and you can check out a few snippets from the TV special below:

“I didn’t have any fight in me. I didn’t care about anything. I just wanted out,” the singer tells VH1 in a new “Behind the Music” interview, airing 9 p.m. ET/PT Tuesday, the same day her new album, “Back to Me,” is released. “At that moment, I wanted out. I wanted it to be over with – all of it, all of that [expletive].”

She continues: “I just sat in the closet and looked at the mirror and took all the pills in the bottle. I wanted to go to sleep and just be at peace. I knew exactly what I was doing. You can’t accidentally take a whole bottle of pills.”

Barrino’s manager, Brian Dickens, recalls finding her lying on the floor in her room. “Her emotions were extremely low,” he says. “She’d been crying all day. Fantasia was just numb. Fantasia texted me, saying ‘I love you.’ I wrote back, ‘I love you more.’ Then it hit me.”

“I wrote, ‘You better not do anything or think about doing anything stupid.’ And I left it at that. About 10 minutes later, Fantasia texted me back, and she said, ‘Already did.’ I went into Fantasia’s room and saw her on the floor, and my heart just dropped.”

Fantasia said the stress of her current life experiences became too much to bear.

“I was tired of people doing me wrong, constantly, over and over again, dealing with my family – my father, dealing with men and their [expletive] – I was tired,” she says. “My head was hurting me. I was over it.”

To complicate matters even more, Barrino is now being threatened with a lawsuit by Paula Cook, the wife of Antwaun Cook, with whom Fantasia had been having an affair.

“When I met him, he was separated … wasn’t living in his home. He didn’t want to be back with his wife – that is what I was told,” Barrino says. “I remember waking up in the hospital [and thinking], ‘It didn’t work, I’m still here in this hellhole. Still here with all this drama going on.’”

Ultimately, the singer says the saving grace was her nurse. “My nurse Melanie was a blessing into my life because she didn’t tell me what I wanted to hear,” she says. “She told me what I needed to hear. And she looked at me and said, ‘You gotta get up, and you’ve gotta get out of here, ’cause you haven’t fulfilled your destiny.’”

“I realized how people end up in the grave. Because that one moment [snaps her fingers] of just breaking or feeling like I can’t, I can’t go on, it’s too heavy. That was somewhere I don’t ever want to go again.”

Source: EUR Web

We’re glad to still have you with us Fannie!! But NEVER scares us like that again…

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  • Supa_sexy

    What a simple minded B***H!!! I knew exactly what I was doing because I wanted out, WHERE THEY DO THAT AT! No man is worth your life and no shame or pain should make you want to end your life, especially if you have something or someone to live for and that’s her daughter.

    Fantasia needs to go somewhere and hide and get her SH** together because this type of thinking and behavior is not normal. I don’t judge but I’ma just say this, if you act like an a** then you are an a**, if you play with dogs, then most likely you will catch fleas, and last but not least, if you see or want death then death becomes you. I just hope and pray that 6 months to a year from now, we don’t hear about her overdosing on some pills or she has been found dead in her home. Remember people your tongue is a weapon, it can speak good in your life just as well as death!

  • ras

    fantasia im pray for you baby love you

  • Fatoumata Good

    We love you more than you can imagine, please live for us. You are tougher than all the drama around you. PLease don’t do that anymore. Don’t let haters prevail, sugar

  • cyncyn8

    Don’t give up Fantasia…God won’t give u more than u can bear. Your strength & grace got u here. U can go the full course. Remember those that need u. Luv ya